About

Welcome to my site. I'm glad you're here and I'm grateful that I made it here too, because this year, I've finally come to the surface to BE WHO. I. AM. 

I'm no longer uncomfortably lurking in the shadows as I did my entire adult life. My people pleasing gig is over and I'm living my life according to ME which has made me happier in BEing who I was born to be and sharing my positive vibes out into the world. 

After years of personal growth work, I've cleared familial lineage influences, cut negative energetic cords, silenced egoic dictates, tired cultural expectations, dysfunctional behavior patterns, turned off old broken record stories, and shut down operating programs that were never my own. 

I AM now the most authentic version of me which makes me feel positive, happy, and allows me to do what I was actually born to do. Some days I feel like getting to this point it is a bit of a miracle, even when I know it was a very perfect process.

And that's why I'm showing up here in service. I want to share the practices I used that worked for me, to help you find your way to showing up as the YOU that you were born to be. Two-gether, we can baby step forward co-creating positive energy vibes, setting mindful intentions to be the best version of our selves that we can be for the good of us and the good of all. Are you ready?

I came upon this long journey to me by being informed from years of studying alternative healing modalities: shamanism, flower essence medicine, plant and animal spirit medicine, tarot, reiki, access consciousness bars, massage therapy, channeling, yoga, forest bathing, mediumship, meditation, the divine feminine, and practicing personal creativity in almost every artistic form available. I'm so grateful to have been inspired and informed by such   diverse and inspiring creative resources.                              

All roads lead HOME.

It doesn't matter how your journey has unfolded up to now. Everyone has their unique story and pathway. And like every work in process humyn BEing, I still have miles to go and EVERY DAY I recommit to my practice. I open my toolbox and try. When I fall down, and I do with regularity, I get back up again. But because I'm committed to having peace in my daily life and thriving to be who I was born to BE, instead of surviving, I'm not giving in and I'm not giving up. 

I didn't come here to roll over and take a less than the quality of life I want by living it according to someone else's influences. All I want is to simply just BE the original version of me that I came here as, before the programming happened. I want to be the one whose only goal in life was to be happy, despite the ever-present world chaos or other people's moods swirling around me. 

What version of you do you want to BE?

Of course, I realize that every day happiness is not realistic. I'm sure not going to be a fake ray of sunshine because toxic positivity is not my gig. I'm not going to be painting on a smile when it's not genuine, but I AM going to try to consciously keep using all of my tools to get my ship righted in the storm of life that's unfolded around us. 

Life can be brutal and right now, it takes a lot of extra effort to stay grounded in the worble of the collective fear vibe energy that's vibrating out in the world. 

It's been very helpful to put my focus on my daily goal of staying committed to my calm, peace, and happiness. It's my bigger picture intention that everything I do for my self, that the benefits of my positive energy that I'm able to achieve can ripple out into the world to create positive change for the good of all. I want us all to win this together.

Each day when I wake up, I invest in me and my practice before I'm too awake to talk my self out of it as being unimportant. When I engage my practice before my ego wakes up, my soul starts the day off right. 

I say my gratitudes before I get out of bed for the zillion things I have to be grateful for. I gently stretch and breathe, being so thankful I can move my body. I set my positive intentions every morning to stay aware that what presents itself to me every day is something to learn from, and that I navigate it with as much peace and ease along the way that I can muster up. When I'm successful in remaining in this positive vibe and being mindful and conscious throughout the day of what I'm learning as I go through it, I begin to feel the calm, peace, and resulting happiness start to flutter in to my field, and it's my intention that I'm going to share that  positive ripple vibe out into the world.

My resolve to operate this way doesn't just happen on its own and it's not magic or wishful thinking. It's dedicated, purposeful, intentional practice that feels like WORK I'm willing to do because not only do I feel the power of positivity is so needed in the world, but more importantly,     I said YES to the prompts from the invitation from the Universe to do life exactly this way for the good of me and the good of all. 

THIS IS MY CALLING.

Showing up to my calling and the surface has been a huge personal undertaking I've absolutely been avoiding and putting off. I've had to wrangle my ego and do what the Universe has asked of my soul. I can no longer deny what I've put off doing for years until it was more convenient, or until my kids got older or, or, or....The TIME IS NOW. And if not now, then when? When could there possibly BE a better time in our lifetimes than to show up now to try to help raise the vibration of the planet? 

I'm curious: What happens when more of us                       show up this very way?

I'm realistically aware that this practice is not for everyone, and boy, do I get that. It's not easy and it takes regular flexing of the muscle of curiosity all the time, every day, to ask what everything that's presenting itself to me is teaching me, and to not take offense or become the victim which propels me into low vibe energy that doesn't help me or anyone around me. 

Because I'm still humyn - my ego still gets triggered, I'll curse like a sailor, I might want to run and hide or curl up in a ball and cry, but my soul won't let me. My soul knows too much! This is all just transitional.

My soul knows that it will all be okay. I need to have all the humyn experiences, emotions, and honor this perfect process of whatever happens in life and then get back in my own saddle. 

After these few steps backwards, I always come back to the fact that my happy and my positivity is my responsibility and isn't coming from other people. It's up to me to do the work. It's up to me to let go of the heavy stuff that happens. We aren't supposed to drag all the shite that ever happened to us forward into our Now. We need to put that filled up baggage down on the side of the road and walk on to find our own happy along the way.

And while I know I can't buy my happy in the store and there's no on-demand happy I can download, my happy is independent of external influences. My happy isn't dovetailed into anything else but my self and my own calculated actions to mindfully, intentionally create my day in the best way I can for the good of me, for the good of all- every single day, no matter what is going on. 

But like every human, the storms of daily life can be raging around me and as long as I stay mindful about the learning that's available, I can use my practice. I can remember the solid rock foundation of my practice is based in the soul level knowing that the Truth of WHAT IS has been an anchored constant for me and this Truth is more powerful than any bad day. 

Even on my worst days, the Truth of WHAT IS informs, reminds and calms me to KNOW I AM CONNECTED TO SOURCE ENERGY. I came from Source, I AM INFUSED WITH SOURCE ENERGY, AND I WILL RETURN TO SOURCE. 

Meanwhile, I keep in mind that anything that shows up as a storm, is also coming from Source to teach me and guide me through my evolutionary process, no matter how humynly painful it can be. These Earth lessons appear for me from which to learn. Life isn't out to get me. I know, no matter what happens, that I AM connected, that all *this* will pass, I can learn from it, integrate it, and keep on going on my personal mission in trying to BE me through all of it and focus on creating and magnifying positivity out into the world. The less I let the things of life blow me off course, and remember that this is all happening for me, the better I stay in my own lane. 

Here, in my own lane, this version of how I do life does NOT require likes, approval by others, announcements to social media of my every move, or validation of any shape or form. My mission does NOT require a certain kind of weather to make me happy, and my happy should NEVER be dependent on if my hair came out good this morning, if there's a zit on the end of my nose, if my pants are fitting too tightly, or if my hairline is receding. 

Like YOU, I AM NOT just my hair, skin, or my weight. That's all just packaging. And besides my egoic self, who else in the world would really care if my hair didn't turn out right today? All of that kind of negative thinking is just the very old program of ego assigning values of good or bad, obsessing and stressing about body packaging, while trying to railroad us away from being peaceful and preventing us to get into Creation energy to create a wonderful, happy day. Sorry not sorry, ego. Not today.

It's a huge benefit to remember that it's not our ego's warped opinion that matters, but instead, it's the TRUTH of the goodness of our original happy SOUL we came here with that counts. It's our soul's inner light, LOVE, and our unique personality that really make all the difference in the world and from that solid and sacred point is where we're best supported to thrive. 

We can feel peace and comfort in the knowing that on any given day, that we're a co-created spark of the Divine, filled with Creation energy, and connected to Source, the Universe, The One, God/Goddess, The Great Spirit -              call IT what you will. 

Underneath the countless layers of the onion of our ego's and personality's layers of defense mechanisms, dictated learned behaviors, and other people's ideas of how and who we should be, there's the unique individual as we were originally divinely planned according to our own co-created divine blueprint with the Divine to BE exactly as we were born to BE. 

When we become more of being who WE were originally born to be, according to us, and our own soul's dictates, we get happier because we're living our lives authentically. We reject less of who we are, and we can BE as we were intended. 

We become more free as we lose the operating instructions and programs that weren't our own. We may have lost our earliest sense of what once made us happy, as we were led into various directions to do things and accept other people's ways and subscribe to what their idea of happy or unhappy looks like. But we absolutely can find our way back - and forward to our own definition of peace, positivity, and happy.

Sometimes along the way,  we lost our selves and became like the rest of the sheep, just following the rest of the heard and liking what everyone else liked and doing what everyone else did because it was easier, safe, and more predictable than separating ourselves from the herd to spend time discovering what else could possibly make us happy.

 But here's a newsflash: If our happy has ever been dependent upon extraneous things that are largely out of our control, on people, or things, then we might want to look at why we've given the power of being happy away to exterior influences that we have no ability to control. 

It's such a worthwhile investment of our time and energy to get real with finding out what truly makes us happy, even if it's not popular with the rest of the crowd, isn't camera friendly, glamorous, or gets a thumbs up. It's so worthwhile to have REALISTIC happy goals that are actually obtainable in our NOW, as well as having some to shoot for in the future. 

What we don't want to do is to be unhappy because of any extraneous thing hasn't arrived yet to deliver our happy. We are better served living our best day possible however that looks, every day. Stop waiting for happy to show up from somewhere or someone and choose to create your own happy for your self every single day. 

Happy doesn't have to be a future destination that we get to someday. And sure, a material item can bring us some short term happy, but things can only bring a temporary fix. Deep down if our authenticity isn't being honored in who we were born to be, there will be something missing. Being who we're born to BE fills that empty space. We become WHOLE when we stop denying who we really are. We become more at peace, in ease, content, and grateful.

I believe true happiness happens when we embrace exactly who we were born to BE, unapologetically, running our lives from our own original operating systems. If we aren't being authentic, there's no amount of stuff and things that will move that happy needle. 

As long as we are denying who we are and who we were really born to be, there will be an unsettling and nudgy conflict energy that will always come to the surface to dull that materialistic fake happy shine. At some point in life, hopefully we wake up to the fact that we don't owe anyone a false version of our self to please them. We get one chance to be who we came here to BE in our own unique authenticity.  

Once we become self-aware of the actual discomfort of the mass of people pleasing, dysfunctional energetic, familial, and cultural dictates, outdated and broken record behaviors that have been anchored into our fields that we were taught and conditioned with according to other people's operating systems to live our lives, we can begin to practice a level of self-awareness and forward movement that can lead us away from this outdated programming. We can begin to clean out our own soul's house,

We can remember our own unique and original operating systems that were installed by Source. And with our free will, we can also co-create new and better operational programming that allows us even more peace and ease, even when storms are spinning around us.  

When we live authentically from our cleared palette, we can thrive according to our own concept of what happiness looks like and allow our selves to have days that are more real, happy, joyful, positive, and fulfilled.

I believe our personal happiness every day is worth working towards - even if we have to fight against our own repetitious and deeply engrained limited beliefs dictated by our rigid thinking egos and the very real pushback from the people around us who may be uncomfortable when we change for our right to claim to be who we want to be.

 And while our purpose here is to BE HUMYN, hopefully we do this fantastic trip with a bit more of having our beautiful souls in charge of driving our bus, where we can ride along peacefully in our authenticity and ripple out our happiness and positivity of being our selves as we enjoy our trip here and help change the world. 

The world doesn't need any more carbon copies of fake people. WE WERE DESIGNED TO BE OUR SELVES, AS WE WERE NEEDED. IT STARTS WITH US.

Our personal evolution to remembering and creating our original authenticity is not quick or linear, but it's our own perfect process that is SO worth doing. The good news is that it's possible to release epically old baggage, disconnect from energy cords that are draining, and get our energy better balanced to start us on our way. We can show up more in our own power than ever before to create the lives we want and embrace who it is we were born to BE.          We CAN have happy days. We can share that out into the world for the greater good.

The pathway forward will appear as soon as we take our first step. 

You are loved. YOU ARE LOVE. You are worth it. YOU CAN. 

We've got this! Let's goooo!